...rainy days....

...rainy days are my favorite. this morning, i would have taken a walk in the rain with you if you would've let me....

...missing....

...i miss my brother. sometimes i think if you were here, it wouldn't be so bad to miss him so much....

...teasing...

...i downloaded some cheesy pop music today. wish you were here to tease me about that....

....it smells like fall...

....i woke up today thinking it smelled like fall. i wish you were here to take a walk in the cool air this evening...

....melancholy....

....today i'm feeling a bit melancholy-like. would love to have a man give me a hug. sometimes that's just truth....

...weary...

...i'm just so tired. weary of this circumstance, this draining life. i'm just tired tonight....

...flirting....

...i am not great at flirting...but when i get in one of these moods, it's pretty fun. especially when there's an equally charming fella on the other side. you'll see one day... ;)

...missing...

...tonight i miss my friend who isn't speaking to me anymore. she has been on my mind much. i need a hug, i think. but mostly i just want her to know i love her....

...tv premiere week...

...it's tv premiere week...tonight i am watching all the new shows. kinda wish i didn't have to do it alone....

....afraid....

...recently i asked someone what they were afraid of and the question was turned on me. what am i afraid of? that it will turn out the way it always does, with my heart in pieces, shattered and destroyed again....

...sigh of relief...

....isn't it great to make a decision? it's like you can breathe that sigh of relief and think on the thing that's been consuming your thoughts for too long. god's in charge and i am walking in a new direction....

...seasons....

....in life there are seasons. one season in my life is in the process of ending, and the next will begin shortly. what that will look like, i don't know. i'll tell you about this sometime....

...uncertain...

...i find myself unsure of what to do in a situation in my life. it's like i have a choice between two things i love. that makes it harder, and i wish that you were here tonight....

...doofus...

...so it would seem that I'm a genuine doofus. yup. things in my head are generally worse than reality...

...bless the broken road....

...i heard 'bless the broken road' on the radio today. somehow i feel like that is going to be a theme song of my love. and that's ok....

...it's all in my head...

...that's what i keep telling myself and hoping. otherwise, i might be in for a bumpy ride coming up....

...a good cry....

...sometimes a girl just needs a good cry, a hand to hold on to, and someone to hug her. it's nights like tonight that i wish you were here....

...out of sorts....

...i feel very out of sorts this week. somehow like i cannot connect with anyone appropriately or like i don't feel right about things. i wish i could grasp why i feel this way. maybe i just need a hug...

...keith urban...

...tonight i was listening to keith urban, and there's a couple of songs that feel like came right out of my journal and placed into song form. 'if ever i could love' & 'my heart is open' are the two most poignant to me. i know that when the time is right, that's exactly what my heart will sing to yours...

...back to work...

...tonight is back to work for me. some times vacation makes it harder to go back to work. i wonder if it would be as hard if you were around. just a thought...

....bedford social club....

....tonight, my parents & i went to the bedford social club. it was so good. but out of the corner of my eye, i spotted a beautiful booth for two. maybe one day we'll go there together and share a tasty meal...

...some people....

...some people feel like home, without explanation. when i find one, it makes me miss you...

...communion....

...tonight don t. led communion at brcc. it was amazing. there was so much god put in my heart. i would have shared it with you after....


...when you're here, i hope to share what god does in my heart on night's like these....