everything

you are everything i could not run away from.
you are and always have been.
this love stays when you are far away.
life goes on - sure
but you are always here, always with me.
no one knows or understands
but it was always you.
you are everything i could stop from loving
i loved you then
i love you now
i will love you then.

...burn my bridges...

The air is stale in the room tonight

Ain’t nothing but memories

Lurking in behind my sad eyes

There is more to come, I realize

But i can’t see the forest for the trees. 

Where are you?

I’m hanging on for you

Are you here yet?

Waiting just around the bend

Draw me in, set me ablaze....

Set those bridges on fire for me. 

Light up the passion inside

Show me all that was meant to be

Burn those bridges for me. 

What came before you broke me

Truth is I thought it was over

All I’d lost was a dream

But what I’d wanted was to see

A shelter for my heart, a cover. 

Where are you?

I’m hanging on for you

Are you here yet? 

Waiting just around the bend?

Take them down, 

Burn Burn Burn

Dismantle 

Burn Burn Burn

Let’s dance together 

And watch the bridges

Burn Burn Burn...

...better....

i remember when 

the phone couldn't wait to ring

the breathe was excited to hear me

i remember when it was new

the day the blood burned

the day my heart awoke. 

it was because of you

that i learned to hope

that i learned to forgive 

that i learned to breathe

that i learned to love

it was because of you i am better.

broken pieces scattered

but i'm better for that too. 

breathing again with you

hoping again with you. 

forgiving again with you. 

loving again with....

i remember the days when it was new....

when you needed me 

and i need you. 

...what does it sound like?...

...what does it sound like, a broken heart?
is it loud and cacophonous..
or silent and less sonorous?
it could be the sound of shattering,
or simply the nothing of mattering.

...what does it sound like, a tear falling ?
is it like a thunder storm pelting...
or silent like the winter melting?
it could be loud and agonizing,
or simply resigned wizening.

...sometimes....

...sometimes i think things will never change and that you'll never come. but then i remember that god knows precisely what he's doing....

...time...

...i hear that time heals all wounds. that in time, what i feel will go away, that the gaping hole in my heart you left when you left will close...but no. as time has passed, the hole remains and what i feel still feels the same. the time has taught me to not talk about it. but in my heart and in my mind...nothing has changed, time has simply passed...

...i think about you...

...i think about you always. you have never left the sacred place you hold. i just don't talk about it anymore to people...