i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in

my heart)i am never without it(anywhere

i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)

                                                      i fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

- e e cummings -

...something to remember....

...this conversation happened today...
"...there are few people i would welcome waking me at early hour & yes, you're one of them…"
"i know.…& there are few people i will read the Bible to at 4am…"
...i think a piece of my heart just cracked a little bit...in a good way....

...the holidays....

...the holidays are a strange time. it's joyful, fun and i revel in the family, the celebration of Jesus' birth (and my own. ;)) ....i love to celebrate with friends, eat good food, relax with a good holiday movie...but then...when things get quiet...i miss you. wishing for the day you'll be here for the holidays....

...who will i become...

...sometimes i wonder who i will become when you turn your light towards my soul. will i be more than beautiful? will i crumble to pieces? will i bloom something new and fresh for both of us? i wonder...

...cozy nights...

...sometimes on cozy nights, i'm curled up on the couch in my softest blanket and i think of you. the hope of your nearness overwhelmed me sometimes. i wish you were here....

...when i'm at the movies...

...particularly when i'm alone or with another couple, i inevitably look at the seat next to me and can imagine you being with me. some day, you'll watch a movie. maybe you'll hold my hand, or whisper sarcastic comments in my ear...but all in all, you'll be with me....

i wish...

i wish i could show you...

...how you light a fire inside of me like no one else has ever done...
...what the world sees when they look at you - light, truth, hope, ignition...
...that your laughter is unmatched...
...that your heart is a kaleidoscope of colors that everyone sees but you...
...how your eyes tell me everything you cannot speak...even in pictures.
...that you hold THE Light in you and He shines brighter through you than you know...
...when you are lonely or in the darkness the astonishing light that of your own being....
...that no darkness, no haunting, no hurt, no doubt, nothing, can stop you from being all that you are...
...that you are a brilliant light -- inexhaustible, un-diminishable....
....that you are loved more than you could know...
...that until the day i die, you will be loved, appreciated and believed in...
...and that my love for you is as inexhaustible and undying...