...what does it sound like?...

...what does it sound like, a broken heart?
is it loud and cacophonous..
or silent and less sonorous?
it could be the sound of shattering,
or simply the nothing of mattering.

...what does it sound like, a tear falling ?
is it like a thunder storm pelting...
or silent like the winter melting?
it could be loud and agonizing,
or simply resigned wizening.

...sometimes....

...sometimes i think things will never change and that you'll never come. but then i remember that god knows precisely what he's doing....

...time...

...i hear that time heals all wounds. that in time, what i feel will go away, that the gaping hole in my heart you left when you left will close...but no. as time has passed, the hole remains and what i feel still feels the same. the time has taught me to not talk about it. but in my heart and in my mind...nothing has changed, time has simply passed...

...i think about you...

...i think about you always. you have never left the sacred place you hold. i just don't talk about it anymore to people...

...through your eyes...

...through your eyes, the world was better. it was brighter, funnier, far more of a place of wonder than I ever knew. you changed my eyes to see like you. because of you, i see the world better. i know myself more, i can make things better for people around me. because of seeing the world through your eyes....

...through your eyes, love was grander. it was deeper, more adventurous, and a place of more thrill than the most extreme activity. it was more than i ever knew, because of you, i loved more fully, i learned to forgive more deeply, and fly to places of emotion i never knew existed. because of seeing love through your eyes....

...through your eyes, hope never ceased. forgiveness was always present. the promise of 'i'll be right here and all will be well' was always sure. trust became real again, i knew i wasn't alone. because of you, picking up the phone wasn't a chore, but a delight. simple words became secret language, laughter made distance seem like you were beside me. surety. trust. i knew you were there. and all was well, through your eyes....

...through your eyes....how i miss your eyes...how i miss seeing the world in your eyes. how i miss loving so fervently through your eyes...i miss it all...i miss your eyes....

...always....

...one word. so small. means so much. it will be always...always in my heart...always love...always you...always....

 

...hold me...

...if you were here would you hold me? would you let me cry away the stress of the last few days? i just want you to hold me tonight because today i'm finding it hard to be me...